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It was 1967.  Joan was seriously ill with glandular fever.  She had a very high fever and was delirious.  This particular night her mother was sitting with her, as the doctor had told her Joan could die.  She says she was not aware of either her mother or the doctor in the room

It’s very hard to put my experience into words.  Initially I felt very frightened.  I was only 15 and knew I was dying.  Gradually I relaxed and felt very calm, an acceptance of what was going to happen.  My fear vanished.  I saw a distant light that was friendly and warm, and felt myself drawn towards it.  There was just a feeling of tremendous peace.  I felt I was floating, weightless, I appeared to see only a tunnel.  I think I looked down on myself in bed, but this was very brief.

There was a light or glow at the end of a tunnel, a beautiful gold like the sun rising.  I felt it was warm and pleasant.  It made me feel very secure and loved.  I saw someone, but no one I knew.  He held out his arms to me, he was smiling and called my name.  I seemed to know what he was saying but he didn’t appear to talk to me.  it was more a sort of telepathy.  I felt very comfortable and secure.

At the time I felt it was Christ.  There was no evil, nothing frightening.  I reached out to touch his hands, but he told me I was not ready to join him and I must go back and I would recover.  I knew I only had to touch his hands and I would join him.  There was definitely some threshold I had to cross.  At the time I thought it was betwixt Heaven and Earth.  I felt reluctant to go.

I felt I had experienced something wonderful.  My mother certainly thinks I experienced something that night as she witnessed it all.  According to her, I sat up in bed.  Minutes before I had been delirious and throwing myself around the bed.  My temperature had gone and I improved rapidly from that night.  My doctor was amazed at such a dramatic recovery.

I have told my fiancé and one or two close friends – most people, I fear, would brand me a nutcase or say I dreamed it