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Beers, Clifford - Paranoia strikes

Identifier

011936

Type of Spiritual Experience

Vision
Hallucination

Number of hallucinations: 1

Background

The detectives are a figment of his own imagination

A description of the experience

Clifford Beers – A Mind that found itself

Shortly after going to New York to live, I had explored the Eden Musee. One of the most gruesome of the spectacles which I had seen in its famed Chamber of Horrors was a representation of a gorilla, holding in its arms the gory body of a woman. It was that impression which now revived in my mind. But by a process strictly in accordance with Darwin's theory the Eden Musee gorilla had become a man-in appearance not unlike the beast that had inspired my distorted thought.

This man held a bloody dagger which he repeatedly plunged into the woman's breast.  The apparition did not terrify me at all. In fact I found it interesting, for I looked upon it as a contrivance of the detectives. Its purpose I could not divine, but this fact did not trouble me, as I reasoned that no additional criminal charges could make my situation worse than it already was.

For a month or two, "false voices" continued to annoy me. And if there is a hell conducted on the principles of my temporary hell, gossippers will one day wish they had amended strictly to their own business. This is not a confession. I am no gossiper, though I cannot deny that I have occasionally gossipped-a little. And this was my punishment: persons in an adjoining room seemed to be repeating the very same things which I had said of others on these communicative occasions.

I supposed that those whom I had talked about had in some way found me out, and intended now to take their revenge.

The source of the experience

Beers, Clifford

Concepts, symbols and science items

Concepts

Hell
Judgement

Symbols

Hell

Science Items

Activities and commonsteps

Activities

Suppressions

Manic depression

Commonsteps

References