TIHKAL - Alexander Shulgin - 4-HO-DiPT
Type of Spiritual Experience
Smashed is not a spiritual experience. It is smashed.
This is probably a vison 'mother cuddly imagery – removed from physical angles'. Although it makes no sense
Question " Is this a religious experience? "
Answer "No, it's brain damage"
A description of the experience
TiKHAL – the continuation – Dr Alexander and Ann Shulgin
4-HO-DiPT with 20mg orally
….fifteen minutes, it starts and develops fast – very nice – some leg tremor. Thirty minutes, I am already well over ++. Speed of onset is incredible – I could not drive – I feel robbed of voluntary action. Forty minutes, this could not get any deeper. Fifty minutes, incredible orgasm. Fifty five minutes, I struggle to put a name to it, just +++ smashed – with eyes closed very little – I am somewhat chilled – no visual, no sensory…one hour ten minutes, Rubenesque fancy – no sex but back to mother cuddly imagery – removed from physical angles.
One hour thirty minutes, go for two very significant pieces of wood for the fireplace – if all my actions are preprogrammed and I am following commands, then I have no free will – if the command is ‘to have free will’ then I obey. Whom? Who?
Why obey an undefined, unheard commander?
Still +++…… One hour forty minutes back to ++, still very much in the grips of lack of self determination. I could function in the lab but following whose directions? Is this finally God? Is this a religious experience? One hour fifty minutes, down to +. This has to have been a religious awakening. Two hours still a little zombie like, but largely down. Two hours twenty minutes, I am still shaken to the roots by these realisations. Three hours, completely together