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I cannot stand our being apart
The pain of it destroys my heart
I’m hurting hurting love please see
What separation does to me
 
I think I believe you love me too
But words and actions seem untrue
I cry for you, do you me miss?
The pain, the pain of  all of this
 
Constant rejection, always no
Always excuses not to go
Endless reasons not to meet
Always always in defeat

 I offer to drive endless miles
Just so I can see your smile
Just so I can have a kiss
And you then reject even this
 
Always always always no
Always a reason it can’t be so
Each time I suggest new ways to meet
You trample trample under feet
 
I’m failing failing from it all
I hit my head against your wall
And now my head hurts so that I
Just sit here, sit here and just cry
 
And just for once, how good t’would be
To hear a yes, that you are free
That you’re prepared to make some time
That meeting me is not a crime
 
That all your errands don’t come first
That granny’s illness can be nursed
That Ted can paint the shop himself
That shopping goods stay on the shelf
 
That grandchildren, without mama
Can get their love from their papa
Just for this once, not all the time
Not much to ask, not such a crime
 
That all that gardening can wait
Your sister accepts another date
For that nice lunch, and furthermore
The windows can be left  - a chore
 
That all those jobs that must be done
Can wait a bit, you want some fun
That you have had an inspiration -
Replace my sadness with elation
 
But no, I know it cannot be
Always the last, the fate for me
So unimportant to your life
Your stupid pointless pseudo wife
 
Perhaps from now I’ll no more ask
What is the point?  Too hard a task
You have your life that I can see
You have no need, no need of me
 
No matter what you try to say
I’ll softly softly drift away