Lilly, John - LSD and self destructive programs
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
John C Lilly – The Center of the Cyclone
The most frightening thing about this whole episode was the fact that part of me could use information stored in me to kill the rest of me. Insofar as I could remember, I was not consciously trying to commit suicide. At the time, it was literally an 'accident'.
When I realised that I had such lethal 'programs' stored within me that they could destroy me if I gave in to them or if I wasn't aware of their presence, I decided to do a much more thorough self analysis and root out these programs.
My analysts had warned me that such destructive tendencies existed. Apparently he was aware, even though I wasn't.
I suspect that these programs have been released in those cases in which the person under LSD ends up walking off a balcony or in front of a car. I do not think it is because of illusions or delusions projected onto the outside world as much as it is a release of the self destructive programs.
During periods of intense emotion which can be released by techniques discussed later as well as by LSD, such programs can be activated and can gain control of the whole system