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Haven't Cried like that for Years

Toad Venom

by UmbrellaTools

Citation:   UmbrellaTools. "Haven't Cried like that for Years: An Experience with Toad Venom (ID 35304)". Erowid.org. Mar 5, 2008. erowid.org/exp/35304

I got back from Arizona, and had collected the venom I promised to bring back. I only found 3 toads, but one was a large female, so she blessed me with a large amount of venom. I've never 'tripped' before, and had only smoked marijuana, speed by products and most legal highs. Anyways..I loaded my freebase pipe up with around a match size head and lit the bottom with a standard lighter. The dried venom began to crackle and smoke while I proceeded to inhale. I dident take a large hit in fear of over doing it, but I got a strange buzz. I quickly looked around to catch anything morphing or moving. I stood up and stumbled through my room and out into the bathroom to check out my face.

Nothing was happening except for this strange buzz. A mixture of being high and drunk. I went back in the closet, and decided I wasent gonna fuck around and beast it. I finished the rest in one hit and thats when the shit took over. While I held the smoke in I felt a wave of electricity and numbness sweep up my spine, into my neck and around the back of my skull. My body went into a tremor, and my arms,hands and stomach vibrated violently. I looked up at my savanna monitor lizard and watched his neck inflate and head move. The come up was to intense and it felt as if I had hundreds of razor blades stuck inbetween my spine and nerve cords. The feeling was that of electricty jolting up my spine. My world split apart and I had the feeling of being not of my body, but being inside.

I was blacked out, but awake. Numb, but cringed at the intense wave of electricty. I began to panic and stumbled out into the dark room lit with black light. I tried to grab onto anything to hold on and not loose the world. I wouldent close my eyes, and I couldent stop grabbing myself. My hands felt like they would melt into me and everything else I touched began to melt into me. My head could be molded like puddy, as well as anything else I got ahold of. My blanket began to slide from me, and melt into my grasp. I thought I was having a bad reaction, and was gonna die. I grabbed the phone and called my g/f to help talk me through it, and it helped a bit. I slowly came down and enjoyed a nice blissful high.

Some people compare this feeling to 'E'. I wouldent know however.... All I know is I had a smile plastered on my face. After the peak, things seem warped and out of place. I noticed things were amplified and everythings size was fucked up. I felt my head wasent attached to my body and that my arms were stretched way out.

All in all it was a crazy fucking expirence. I dident really hallucinate, so dont go thinking its like shrooms or acid. I never tried those either, but all my friends have and they said this was alot more intense. All but one felt they were dying. Im sure if I take enough, I'll trip hard but.....its a fucked up drug that takes time to get used to. Total ego loss and 100% unexpected effects. I honestly havent cried like that for years.....I was that certain I was gonna die.

It was intense. I had no closed eye visuals, or much open eyed ones either....