Buhlman, William - Affirmations
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
William Buhlman - Adventures beyond the body
Journal Entry, September 14, 1992
I verbally repeat an affirmation, "Now I'm out-of-body," thirty to forty times …. I awaken floating just above my body. I am aware of a connection at the base of my spine and somehow visualize this attachment to be a large insect holding me to my body. I instantly fall back into my body and break this unusual connection.
Immediately I again float upward out of my body. I feel people touching me, gently rocking me side-to-side. I hear my mother's voice as she calls my name. I know I'm out-of-body but my perceptions are semi dream like. I say aloud, "Clarity now!" I feel a surge of energy and an intense sensation of lightness and enhanced perception.
Suddenly I'm in a new environment. I'm standing in a maze of rooms completely different from my physical home. Again I ask for clarity and receive an instant improvement of my vision. Directly in front of me are two stairways: one goes up into a golden-coloured room; the other leads into a dark basement.
As I stare down into the darkness, I see a large, slowly moving form. It appears to be headed toward me. As it comes closer, I see the outline of a huge hairy creature, a giant sloth, standing nine feet high; it has a bear's head and the face of a dog. My entire being is paralyzed with fear. I desperately want to run, but I hold my position. Slowly, the creature climbs the stairs and wraps its huge hairy arms around my neck and body. All I can think is, ‘This thing can snap my neck in a heartbeat’.
Suddenly the creature gives me a warm hug and licks my face like a dog. All my fear dissipates as I realize that this ugly creature is powerless to harm me. An intense feeling of empowerment and joy explodes through me; I feel completely free from my fear and limits. The creature looks directly into my eyes, smiles, and disappears. A surge of energy flows through me as I recognize a new form of freedom - an absolute freedom from fear.
I return to my physical body with a new vision of myself. Somehow I know that I have confronted an inner representation of my deepest, darkest fears and have conquered them by holding firm. I feel completely empowered, absolutely knowing that I can achieve whatever I desire. Now I realize that I can overcome my greatest enemy - my own fears.