Sleep paralysis, hallucinations and terror from Paxil
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
Sleep paralysis. I remember I'd wake up in the middle of the night face down or to the side, chest down towards the bed, I was sweating and I could barely move. It felt like something was holding me down to the bed. I couldn't get up for the longest time and when trying it was almost impossible. I could see the door do the room but it took forever to get to it and I felt incredibly, almost infinitely heavy so I was on the floor - not crawling, but one knee on the floor dragging myself, falling down catching the wall. I'd call out for help and no words came out. I heard low, loud voices behind me and in my right ear. Nobody was in the room though.
Sometimes I could eventually get up, but often I would find the urge to drag myself back to the bed because otherwise it felt like a "gravity bomb" had gone off and was holding me down to the floor. Once I'd get back to the bed I'd feel the same as I did before while in the bed. If I made it to the bathroom -- I'd turn on the light and sit on the throne, with a massive splitting migraine, and when I'd close my eyes I'd see moving colour patterns and red spots. Scary. Turns out it was because I was taking Paxil and tried to quit cold turkey, or missed a dose or two. The moral of the story: don't miss doses of Paxil, folks - brain chemistry is nothing to fool around with.
Coming off of this stuff is good but you need doctor supervision. I hope this helps someone. I'd never want anybody else to experience this!