Freddie Mercury - On Love as a source of inspiration
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
Freddie Mercury – His Life in his own Words [compiled by Greg Brooks and Simon Lupton]
If you put them all into one bag, I think my songs are all under the label emotions. It's all to do with love and emotion and feeling. It's all about moods.
Most of the songs I write are love ballads and things to do with sadness and torture and pain, but at the same time it's frivolous and tongue-in-cheek.
That’s basically my whole nature, I guess. I'm just a true romantic and though I think everybody's written songs in that field, I write it in my own way, with a different texture. Basically I'm not writing anything new, I'm not sitting here trying to say, "Look, I've written a song that nobody else has written before!"
No. But I do it from my point of view.
A lot of people have fallen in love and a lot of people have fallen out of love. And people are still doing it, so I'm still writing songs about that - in different atmospheres. I think love and the lack of love is always going to go on, and there are so many different ways that people fall in and out of love. I think most of my songs seem to follow that path, and I think to sing and write about love is actually limitless. I think I'm writing things that everyday people go through. I feel I've gone through all those things myself too, so basically I’m encompassing and actually gathering that research and putting them into songs. I'm a true romantic, just like Rudolph Valentino. I like writing romantic songs about love because there's so much scope and also they have so much to do with me.
…………. as far as I'm concerned I hope that people do believe that I go through torture and pain in terms of love. I think that’s my natural gift, so that’s all I want to do in my songs………….
When I have a relationship it is never a half-hearted one. I don't believe in half measures or compromise. I just can't bear to compromise about anything. I give everything I've got because that's the way I am.
I try to hold back when I'm attracted to someone but I just can't control love. It runs riot. I fall in love far too quickly and end up getting hurt all the time. Maybe I just draw the wrong kind of people to me? I've got scars all over. But I can't help myself because basically I'm a softie.
In terms of love, you're never in control and I hate that feeling. I've cried rivers. I may be hard on the exterior, but I'm very soft-centred. I have this hard, macho shell which I project on stage but there's a much softer side too, which melts like butter. I'm a true romantic, just like Rudolph Valentino but some articles make me sound so damned cold.
I have a soft side and a hard side, with not a lot in between. If the right person finds me I can be very vulnerable, a real baby which is invariably when I get trodden on, but sometimes I'm hard, and when I'm strong no one can get to me. Now and again the quills come out - and they're sharp!
I'm a very dominant person in my relationships. I'm also a very possessive person. I can go to great lengths trying to be loyal just to prove a point, but the moment I find someone has betrayed me, I go the other way. Betrayed, I'm an ogre!
I'm a man of extremes and that can be very destructive. I can be very over-emotional and that can be a very destructive trait in me too. I seem to eat people up when they get too close and destroy them, no matter how hard I try to make things work. There must be a destructive element in me because I try very hard to build up relationships but somehow I drive people away.
They always blame the end of the love affair on me because I'm the successful one. 'Who ever I'm with they seem to get into a battle of trying to match up to me,, and over-compensating.
I spoil my lovers terribly. I like to make them happy and I get so much pleasure out of giving them wonderful, expensive presents, but then they end up treading all over me. When I lay myself bare on the floor it just seems to be my downfall.
Sometimes I wake up in a cold sweat, in fear because I'm alone. That's why I go out looking for someone who will love me, even if it's just for a one night stand. My one night stands are just me playing my part. What I really like is a lot of loving. I fall in love and then I end up getting hurt and scarred. It seems I just can't win.
In one way I think the more mishaps I have, the better the songs I write are going to be. Once I find somebody, find a long-lasting relationship, bang goes all the research for wonderful songs! I'm sort of living on past mishaps.
Well, having said all of that, I don't know... I don't know what's in store for me. I want a challenge. I always want it that way. I think my system is just conditioned to that. The moment it gets too nice, I become bored. I spoil it for myself.