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Too many goodbyes

Each time we meet it is always the same
The elation of meeting, the joy that you came
The bliss of our love making, pleasure of two
Your company, chatter, the dearness of you
Then the slow realisation that time has marched on
That our few days together are nearly all gone
And a small voice within me speaks softly and sighs
Too many, too many, too many goodbyes
 
When we part it is always that you must leave me
In stations, on platforms I wave, look carefree
Just so there’s less pain at our parting for you
But for me it is cinema, none of it true
And each time I turn away, each time I cry
Ignore curious stares from the grey passers-by
For the grief uncontrollable wells from my eyes
Too many, too many, too many goodbyes
 
And this time we had to part in the same way
Leaving me all alone to go back where we’d stayed
Down down into metroland, where in a rush
We kissed all too briefly amidst the crowds push
You had minutes to spare to get that damned train
And it would be weeks before we met again
And the heart in me faltered and stuttered and cried
Too many, too many, too many goodbyes
 
The void of the tunnel, the cold neon light
The fester of dank air in lungs panicked tight
You went past those metal bars trapped in that cage
The hurt yes the hurt of it drove me to rage
For the pain of those partings each time a toll takes
With the anger at parting, my whole being shakes
And each time the hope in me withers and dies
Too many, too many, too many goodbyes
 
So now I am waiting with hope and with fear
For a new date to see you and as time draws near
I’ll be cheerful as I anticipate seeing you
A fresh optimism soaks my being right through
I’ll forget that those sweet days will end with such pain
I’ll just be content that I’ll see you again
But my sweetheart my darling there’s one thing I know
That all that I long for is one long hello