Thelmar, E – 24 Whenever I thought of any person, that person's voice immediately entered into conversation with me
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
The Maniac – A Realistic Study of Madness from the Maniac’s Point of View – E Thelmar
WHENEVER I thought of any person, that person's voice immediately entered into conversation with me. All day these conversations went on. Each speaker always spoke of the matters on which we were mutually interested-spoke in his own well-recognisable voice, and retained his proper character and identity throughout.
There never was one of these conversations that was in any way objectionable. But to be obliged to carry on unceasing conversation wearied me, and I often would gladly have stopped, but was quite unable to prevent the talkers from continuing.
I came to the conclusion that I had been turned into a medium, and having had no training, and not knowing how to close my super- physical senses at will, I was obliged to listen to all this talking going on in the world, at every distance, whether I would or not.
There was one thing that I thought most noticeable and strange, on the subject of all these conversationalists who talked with me willy-nilly, and that was the following - they were all, with scarcely a single exception, men.
As I have far more women-friends and acquaintance than men, and as many of these men talkers were people I hadn't met or given a stray thought to for years (in fact hadn't given a stray thought to even when I had met them!), this circumstance struck me as most peculiar. I wondered why it was that none of my women friends and acquaintance ever spoke to me; and while I was wondering that one afternoon a woman-journalist immediately entered into conversation with me. She asked me if I was wanting any help.
But as at that time I fully believed that one of my invisible friends had made all arrangements to smuggle me out of the house in the dead of night, that night, and convey me (as a corpse shut in a coffin) safely out of the hands of my tormentors, I thanked her, and said I required no help now, as at last I had found it. So she left off talking to me, and never again returned.