Nightmares from memory of terrible experience
Type of Spiritual Experience
In the first instance the hallucination was caused by the extreme pain. In the second instance it is caused by the memory of the fear of that pain – a demon that needs to be expunged with comfort
A description of the experience
anon289594 - Post 125
When I was a child, about five years old, I had to go to the hospital for an operation. They gave me the wrong dose of drugs so I was awake throughout it, and the pain became a visual movie in my mind of what they were doing to me.
How I saw it was the doctors and nurses are holding me down while trying to cut me open with a bread knife and then they cut me open and I can’t do anything. I try to scream, but nothing happens, and I stop breathing for long enough that I “wake up” breathing heavily and dripping with sweat.
I think after that feeling of being powerless, I started to get these weird hallucinations, where everything would zoom out in the sense that I became very small in a big room.
I then see a conveyor belt with things on it, and for a while I do nothing.
Then I take one and I am rushed by a massive giant type figure that crushes me ( I get a tight feeling on my chest and can hear bones breaking). This seems to go on for ages and then I pass out and wake up an hour or so later.
I have the first nightmare (if you can call it that since it doesn’t happen when I am sleeping; it just happens when I am tired and my mind starts to wander) about once or twice a week.
The second hallucination happens most nights before I go to sleep. I wake up one or two hours later and find it hard to sleep at all after that
The source of the experienceWisegeek
Concepts, symbols and science items
Activities and commonsteps
OverloadsOverwhelming fear and terror
SuppressionsBeing a child