Kundalini and divine love
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
Kundalini – Unfolding the Human design – Penny Kelly
In February of 1979, my kundalini experiences became markedly more dramatic. While making love I experienced spectacular orgasms in my head that exploded consciousness and rocketed me into a place where there was nothing but bliss and a simple but powerful awareness that amounted to "I Am!" Still ignorant of what was happening, I paid little attention. I just thought I was having great sex.
However, when the orgasms in my head began to occur in the middle of the day, while at work or in places such as the grocery store, with no lovemaking to prompt them, I began to be frightened. I tried to short-circuit these orgasmic waves, but the result was a misery of intense heat and pressure throughout my body and a heart that pounded away at a frightening rate. If someone had told me, "You're undergoing a spiritual awakening," I would have been even more confused, because orgasms and spirituality did not go together in the small-town, Catholic reality I was raised in.
In addition to the problems caused by intense heat, pressure, and unexpected orgasms, my perception began going awry in the most perplexing ways, sliding into other times and places, seeing things before they happened, or hearing the thoughts of plants, animals, and other people. Suddenly I would find myself out of my body and moving through walls as if they didn't exist. I was unable to read or relax and was completely distracted by the glowing lights I saw around everyone and everything. For someone who was young, working as a tool and process engineer at Chrysler Corporation, and totally ignorant about spiritual unfolding, there was precious little information available to help me understand what was happening to me. My inability to control or manage perception left me certain I was going insane at the ripe age of thirty-one. In the end, I quit my job, and over the next few years I watched my entire perception of reality crumble…………
"But what triggers it?', is often the next question.
When I reply “I accidentally moved into a moment of complete presence and unconditional love” their response is always the same - a blank, baffled look on their faces. Not only is the meaning of one’s ability to be completely present in the moment beyond them, unconditional love is a mystery whose relevance is uncertain at best.
'What is it about unconditional love that would trigger such a massive response in the human body-mind system? Unconditional love is love that is freely given without conditions attached. It doesn't say, "I will love you if you clean your room” or “I will make love to you if you say the right things to me tonight”. It simply pours out of you without hesitation, evaluation, or thought of any kind.
Think of God as a huge ocean of love, light, and bliss all around you. Think of yourself as a delicate bubble submerged in that ocean the same way a submarine can be submerged in the Atlantic.
The walls of your bubble are made of the ideas, beliefs, habits, and rules of reality you learned from parents, teachers, and society. These ideas keep you intact as an individual. They form the sandy soil of self-perception. They guide and direct your behaviour. And they are fierce obstacles to the love you are immersed in.
Poke even a small hole in the walls of your bubble, and God immediately squirts in. Step into unconditional love for the briefest second, and it's like momentarily dissolving the walls of the bubble. You are instantly engulfed in an ocean of God, bliss and light. You are face to face with the source of all life, and when you emerge, you know the Source of yourself in a whole new way. You are awake to your real self.