I thought I was going to die
Type of Spiritual Experience
A description of the experience
It was about 2 pm (IST). I was being taught to ride a motorcycle, my coach was on the pillion. I braked abruptly at a left turn while rolling at good speed - 35 - 40 Kmph - and was thrown off the bike, frontward. The clutch lever caught me in my neck. My head and eyes swam for a few minutes. My brother who had only a skin abrasion helped me to my feet and walked me home. I plumped to my bed with a bad headache. I slept for a couple of hours. When I woke up I had lost all sensation on my left half. I was admitted to a hospital some distance away.
Friends and relatives visited me at the hospital ward. My brother who was at the hospital was in conversation with the doctor in the passage way. I had been given an injection some time ago - an anticoagulant, I was told later.
There was a black space with a wisp of bluish green, fluorescent something that I saw as me.
It kept rising in the black space. Then there was a very bright light, alive, not quite like the sun. It was all kindness, love. The bluish green flame came down along a circular arc. I felt my body shiver, called out in panic to my brother for help. I saw a vignette of my body fall - something like a ghost in cartoons - down from a great height in this space back into my body. I thought I was going to die. I heard my brother say something to me. I was back to normal abruptly. I tried to flex my left hand and could. I made a fist and opened my hand. I felt whole, not like earlier when I felt 'half'.
The experience made a deep impact on me. I could see the difference chatting with friends and relatives - much more relaxed, genuine, warm and loving. But when I tried to convey my experience to people around me, they did not at all seem impressed.
Now 33 years later, it is not much more that a distant memory.