Grof, Dr Stanislav - Experiencing myself as a sperm competing for the egg
Type of Spiritual Experience
This is not Dr Grof's experience, but I have grouped it under him for ease of reference.
A description of the experience
LSD Doorway to the Numinous – Professor Stanislav Grof
The most interesting sequences of this session were yet to come. My consciousness became less and less differentiated and I started experiencing a strange excitement that was dissimilar to anything I have ever felt in my life.
The middle part of my back was generating rhythmical impulses and I had the feeling of being propelled through space toward some unknown goal; I had a very vague awareness of the final destination, but the mission appeared to be one of utmost importance. After some time I was able to recognise to my great surprise that I was a spermatozoid and that the explosive regular impulses were generated by a biological pacemaker and transmitted to a long flagella flashing in vibratory movements. I was involved in a hectic super-race toward the source of some chemical messages that had an enticing and irresistible quality. By then I realised that the goal was to reach the egg, penetrate it, and impregnate. In spite of the fact that this whole scene seemed absurd and ridiculous to my sober scientific mind, I could not resist the temptation to get involved in this race with all seriousness and full expenditure of energy.
Experiencing myself as a spermatozoid competing for the egg, I was conscious of all the processes involved. What was happening had the basic characteristics of the physiological event as it is taught in medical schools; there were, however, many additional dimensions that were far beyond anything that one could produce in fantasy in a usual state of mind. The consciousness of this spermatozoid was a whole autonomous microcosm, a universe of its own.
The excitement of this race was building up every second, and the hectic pace seemed to increase to such a degree that it resembled the flight of a spaceship approaching the speed of light. Then came the culmination in the form of the triumphant implosion and ecstatic fusion with the egg. During the sperm race my consciousness was alternating between that of the sperm heading towards its destination and that of the egg with a vague but strong expectation of an overwhelming event