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Attempted suicide
Identifier
002492
Type of Spiritual Experience
Background
This person describes a place that to them seemed like Hell. No one actually goes to Hell. Hell is used to store all those nasty functions that we have invented that hurt.
He actually went to Purgatory and purgatory is in the Fire level. It is a place used to purge us of all our unwanted function and memory before we head up to join with our Higher spirit. It feels like a rebirth experience.
A description of the experience
Light and Death – Dr Michael Sabom
I had gone up to the mountains to die. I took 20 or 30 Quaaludes and several cans of beer. It was a suicide attempt.
I was all alone and passed out. I was in a place like hell. It was like a valley and the earth had been scorched. There were demons like in a Bosch painting. There was vapour rising from the ground like steam. The sky was overcast with greyish clouds.
I felt awful – depressed and miserable. Unbearable. I didn't have my body anymore. This was worse than anything I ever experienced before.
The demons were giving me a bad time, making fun of me and kicking me. I was falling down a lot.
There was chain lightning in the background and [a voice ] said 'You could have had anything you wanted – you threw it away' During this time, the sky would light up like heat lightning when [the voice] spoke. I thought to myself that I could have been anything that I wanted to be. I had just destroyed it.
I remember begging. I threw myself to my knees and prayed 'Forgive me. I want to live. Please help me'
All of a sudden, I begged real hard and I came to throwing up the Quaaludes.
I think my spirit left my body. I was out of my body and went to a waiting room. This was real, not a nightmare.