Asthma attack gives bliss and love
Type of Spiritual Experience
The inter composer communication came later after the experience.
A description of the experience
I firmly believe I experienced an NDE, yet the conditions leading up to it were quite different from the standard.
I was a sophomore in college, enrolled in a very rigorous engineering program. My never-end drive to succeed academically drove me to exhaustion, and I really didn't have many friends.
Additionally, I suffered from asthma that could make breathing difficult. I was pretty depressed! Friday night fun for me involved studying, and then lighting a candle to watch it burn out. (Although I'm smiling now as I type those pathetic lines, honestly that’s what I used to do!) Then, the most amazing event occurred in my life.
I was alone in my dorm room, and I had been studying. Suddenly, I didn't feel right. My asthma kicked in, so I lay on the bed. Feelings of depression and despair swept over me, and (now I don't quite know why), I said I didn't care if I stopped breathing and died. I just didn't care; I was so sick and tired of everything. Then, I involuntarily arched my back, and knew I died. It's so hard to describe, because I was not ill or involved in an accident. It’s hard to describe the course of events that happened afterward because they occurred simultaneously and lasted forever (but obviously did not).
I found myself enveloped by the most magnificent, brilliant light that radiated love, peace, and understanding. Like other accounts posted here, I never saw nor sensed my physical body. Yet, at the same time, I believe I was kneeling at the base of an enormous throne of the whitest marble, except I never actually saw it. It was an act of voluntary submission and reverence. And, then, after an eternity but instantaneously, I felt I was hurled back into my body through my chest.
Amazingly and immediately following this return, I found a freedom in my lungs, a freedom from asthma that continues today.
Although I wish I could tell more, I don’t recall any tunnel. I never saw anyone, nor was I met by any deceased family members. I didn’t experience a life review, boundary or hear and sense that I had to go back.
Yet, as many have described, the event changed my life. Initially, I hungered for spiritual nourishment to feed the hunger borne from being in the presence of the divine. But, after attending various conservative, right-leaning Christian denominations, I left the church. The doctrines are far too restricting and hateful compared to what I experienced firsthand (or, soul). The best description I've found is from the Tao Teh Ching:
"That which can be described in words is merely a conception of the mind. Although names and descriptions have been applied to it, the subtle reality is beyond the description."
For about 10 years after the experience, I possessed extraordinary extrasensory perception. Most noticeably, I could read people's emotions, which was almost expressly their grief and pain.
Equally, I found the words to comfort and ease their mental turmoil. Although it sounds like such talent would be cool or fun, it was actually very draining, a heavy burden to bear. Gradually, as I stopped going to church, it seemed to dissipate. Today, I describe it as intuition rather than fully sensing others' feeling.
The source of the experienceOrdinary person
Concepts, symbols and science items
Activities and commonsteps
OverloadsAsthma and allergy
Loneliness and isolation
Sleep deprivation, insomnia and mental exhaustion