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I wanted to go that way, but I had to go back
Identifier
022989
Type of Spiritual Experience
Background
A description of the experience
Margot Grey – Return from Death
CASE HISTORY
I was not afraid to go that way. I really wanted to go there. I shall always remember that and I had no fear of it. The peace, the release, the fear was all gone, the pain there was nothing, it was absolutely beautiful, I could never explain it in a million years, but it was a feeling that everybody dreams of someday having. Peace is the only word I can use to express it, it means so much to me, and joy.
I wanted to go that way, but I had to go back. I feel I made a choice, I was drawn back. I wasn't afraid to go that way, and yet, I felt it was my choice to go back. I think I had to come back because I had two little children and I felt they needed me, more than up there where I felt it was my peace and joy, but it meant misery for my children.
I feel even when I was weighing these things; I wasn't feeling any pain or sorrow, but I was thinking calmly and rationally, making a logical decision without emotions involved. As a mother we are ruled mostly by emotion, but I did not make an emotional decision, I made it logically and the choice was mine. I felt the presence was with me all the time and it was communicating with me, not through speaking, but I was aware of the decision that I had to make; I knew to stay meant that I would die, but I was never afraid at any time.