Dancing with God Amanitas - A. Muscaria by btorzyn
Type of spiritual experienceHallucination
A description of the experience
Dancing with God
Amanitas - A. Muscaria
Citation: btorzyn. "Dancing with God: An Experience with Amanitas - A. Muscaria (ID 33297)". Erowid.org. Dec 20, 2004. erowid.org/exp/33297
Amanitas - A. muscaria
Took estimated 7-9 grams. Took half a large cap within tea at 8PM. Tea was made by boiling water for three minutes in the microwave and then pouring the still very hot water over the cap and letting it steep for 10 minutes or so. Then filter through tea strainer. Took tea with milk. I wish I had some honey, because even though I love Soma, I dislike the taste, especially in a tea.
About 9:30PM, I ate another 1/2 of a dried cap. This was a medium sized cap. Feeling pretty good by 10:00 High by 11:00 PM. Then chewed the last bit (around 1/5th of a medium cap) around 11:30 PM. The last bit seemed to be what pushed me over the edge. Again, total consumption estimated at 7 to 9 grams, from three seperate dried mushrooms, all caps.
Some observations from my notes taken at the time:
The world is PULSING with energy. Each item in the room is alternately expanding/contracting (PULSING), with life and energy. Colors are very intense and vivid and the light seems to penetrate everything. Objects have an inner glow much as I remember seeing things when I was a child. Lighting seems like that within the Big Top, at the Circus. This is a very high energy buzz; intellectual, religious, physical.
Work (I am painting the ceiling of a very large room) is effortless. I feel invincible, -- not violent at all, but very strong. I am experiencing minor twitching convulsions but they assist in the work. (I am used to this from previous Soma experiences). I urinated but did not drink it (which I have done in the past.) I am so high that I don’t feel necessary to extend or enhance this trip. Tried to turn off my cellphone, but can’t figure out how (I had the sudden urge to conserve the battery.)
This is the greatest drug in the world! I feel God pulsing through my muscles. Just realized “anyone can dance to every song because the beat is God. The pulse of energy that emanates through everything is God. I am dancing with God, literally. God is a mushroom, or rather — God created the mushroom so that man could participte in God’s consciousness.”
Here began a long period of time where the word “God” was continually repeated in my mind — although it took a long time subjectively before “I” realized it. The situation was that I was sitting on the couch downstairs with this tremendous buzz going on — everything in the universe was just buzzing with energy and I was on the verge of feeling overwhelmed (had to sit down) when all the sudden I realized, that the sound of the buzz was the word “God”. The meaning of the phrase “in the beginning was the word and the word was God” becomes crystal clear to me. I had become one with God. I’m not talking about a sublime intellectual experience, this was the most astounding, powerful, awe inspiring experience I have ever had.
I’m not a scholar on Soma (although I’ve read a half dozen books on the topic), but this was, I believe a “peak” religious experience. I can easily imagine how people in ancient times would be in awe of this mushroom. I had the distinct sense that the mushroom was identifying itself, through my consciousness, as God.
After this (which was probably 5 or 6 hours into the trip), I began to have heavier convulsions (twitching), and resumed painting. However, I was dropping the paint roller at a fairly regular interval. I began to notice that the convulsions were cycling through my body and started to worry, just a bit that they would affect my heart. For example, my hand would twitch then my feet, then my arms... I was afraid that my heart would stop when its “turn” came up.
But after my legs buckled and I did not fall -- I recovered very quickly, I stopped worring about that... I also knew — because generally my memory was good — that this mushroom isn’t a killer. Au contraire, it is my protector and my counselor. Another idea — mentioned above -- is that somehow Soma is God’s means of experiencing, through man’s mind, the joy of being. Hard to describe, but I had the distinct impression that somehow, “God” is only able to experience existence vicariously. Somehow human beings (and other sentient beings) are the lenses through which God views existence. The mushroom is the catalyst.
For some reason, the timeframe of 350 million years kept running through my mind — this may be from one of Terence McKenna’s books, but the idea that Soma is very, very ancient, was in my head.
I also went through short periods of time where I was just standing and swaying, looking around, and getting off on the trip. Not heavy visuals (e.g., no walls melting, etc...) but one interesting feature was seeing the electrons (or something?) within the air in front and all around me. They were very very tiny multicolored points, almost like gnats, but lots of them... flying around. Similar to the “stars” one sees with a bump to the head. Very strange. I knew at this point that I was totally stoned and decided I was done with painting the ceiling. Also, I knocked the radio on the floor and couldn't figure out how to get it working again. Definately impaired (grin.)
Finally at 3:00 I went to bed. I was glad that I had stopped when I did as far as not taking more. I had a somewhat similar experience 20 years ago (on cubensis), but that was more of a “bad” trip with things melting, and many negative fears intruding on the buzz. This experience was generally (99%) positive, with little or no fear. The twitching seems to be a component of the Soma buzz for me, so I’m not fearful of that effect. I would certainly not drive or operate heavy equipment on a trip like this (even a paint roller was too much at the later stages). Also, this would be an incredible experience, I believe, outside, in nature.
In hindsite, I should have walked outside and looked around, but it was 3:00 AM, and I was covered in paint, and the dogs would have woken up, etc.
All in all, an astounding trip! I still had another dose left, maybe another 9 grams. One large full cap and 2/5ths of another cap. That will be a intense trip, but the question, for me at this point, is when? This stuff is so strong, it’s not something I would do ever day, or even every week. One other tip, from Donald Teeter's works, is: don't drink carbonated beverages with Soma. I found out the hard way, that doing so will often lead to nausea. As it is, I drink milk with the shrooms, and rarely, if ever experience nausea (again-- no carbonated beverages.) Take care folks, and respect Soma.
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Observation contributed by: John Bryant