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from NDE Research Foundation - Wendy G NDE

EXPERIENCE DESCRIPTION:

I had not been well for about 1 week.  I had extreme abdominal pain and went to the doctor for a noon appt.  I almost cancelled the doctor's appt as the pain had subsided around 10 a.m.   When I got to the doctor's office I was examined quickly and he ordered an emergency ultrasound.   During the ultrasound they stopped and I was booked into emergency surgery for 12:30 p.m. that day.

I was put to sleep in the operating room them all of the sudden I started floating out of my body.  I felt free, peaceful, no pain and I looked down and they were doing compressions on me.  I continued to float up and a tunnel appeared.  A beautiful tunnel with a bright light at the end of it (the light was brighter than the sun but did not hurt your eyes and it was pure white light).  I knew that I had died and would be leaving behind a 5-6 month old infant and my husband but I did not care.  I wanted to go into the light.  I wanted to go home. 

When I came through the light I knew everyone there and they were so happy to see me welcoming me home.   They were all dead relatives - none had I met before but I knew everyone.  They also appeared in human form to be recognized but somehow that was not their true form now (something I had sensed). I had a connection with everyone and almost a collective consciousness (I do not know how to describe it).  There are so many emotions right now recalling it, but before I saw everyone when I came through the light, it felt like a blanket of love was wrapped around me.  No feeling here (in the present) can express the love or the feelings.   Everything was "pure", the brightest blues, greens, reds, yellows, whites, purples etc.  It was like a filter being removed to see the purity of everything.

I turned and went to the right where I saw what I believe was God.  Pure energy but you knew who that was and the great wisdom that was within.  God spoke to me stating that the message to bring back was love.   We all have to live in love. 

The next thing I saw was a meadow in the mountains with indescribable beauty.  The sky was the bluest blue, the grass was the greenest green - all colors here are extremely pale to there and I saw my grandmother running with children towards me.   She took me by the hand and we were on a bridge at the beginning of a bridge over a small creek - we talked for what seemed like hours about my life since she had died (I had just turned 9 when she died).  We also talked about when she came to let me know that she died, to say goodbye until we would meet again and not to be sad.  She was so vibrant and healthy (she died of a brain tumor).  I told her how much I missed her and she said that she watches over me and my son.  She then said something unexpected to me, that I had to go back and that it was not my time yet.  She said a blink of an eye could be 80 years in our time but that time was man made.  There is no time here.  I understood what she meant.  I said that I wanted to stay and she said it is not your time.

All of the sudden I was falling back through the tunnel, the light was getting further away from and and all of the sudden I felt all this pain, excruciating pain from being back in my body.  As I was falling back into my body they were still doing compressions on me.

The next thing I knew I woke up in the recovery room and the nurses called to the doctor that I was awake.  There was a lot of fussing around me.  I was confused and extremely angry that I was back in my body.

It took me about 4 years to bring up this event to my husband and then he belittled me stating that I was crazy.  I never spoke about again for about 10 years.   By that time I was divorced and getting my life back together.  I was still angry about being here but have come to terms with it and the anger is gone.   I know will be going back there when it is my time.

Q:  At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event?   Yes   I had died during surgery from what I saw.  I do not know how long, but long enough for them to perform CPR.