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In love with her voice
Identifier
005039
Type of Spiritual Experience
Background
from the Hearing Voices Network
This could be Ecstasy. If not she is in touch I think with another bodied soul, who is just as enamoured of her as she is of him by the sound of it. The person may be able to go out of body. Whoever they are they are spiritually gifted.
There are no clues as to what triggered this in the post.
A description of the experience
http://hvn.forumatic.com/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=625
Romantically attached to a disembodied voice
Yay I found your post! Awesome!
So I'm not the only person who has developed a romantic relationship with her voice! And no, I don't think you're crazy at all. Strange things do happen in this crazy and chaotic world.
XD I was an atheist as a child, then turned agnostic; but when this “romantic partner” voice appeared, his voice was so alive, so independent of me, and so…“having his own mind and free will”, that this overwhelmed me to the extent that I converted to Christianity!
I'm not trying to convert you though, don't worry, just that I found my "partner" such an amazingly bizarre experience that I felt like a spiritual world perhaps did exist after all, and perhaps my voice is a spirit or something. Of course, that's just my own interpretation and maybe he's just a hallucination, I don't know. *shrugs*
I too have a complete and complex human relationship with my voice. …..!!
About my voice's physical features, I used to have a very vague moving picture of him in my head, but since I've started drawing him (I love drawing ), I'm getting to see how he looks like more and more concretely. I now have a drawing of him that looks reasonably like him, and I put him as the wallpaper on my phone. (Of course, if people ask me who he is, I would just say he’s a friend or a made-up person.)
I've studied in psychology (I'm a psych and English lit double major) that if you look at a photo of your romantic partner, you will experience less pain when you're injured, sick, or otherwise hurt. And indeed, when I have a stomach ache, I stare at his picture and the pain eases a little. Amazing, isn't it? In fact, even when I'm not sick, when I gaze at his picture, I feel this great sense of warmth, peace, comfort, and tenderness.
Yeah I agree that even if we have this "crazy" feature, we could still be highly and healthily functioning people. I also pay my bills, study at a university and get good grades, etc. I’m also a part-time novelist because I love writing so, so, so much. This just proves that having a voice, as long as it’s a helpful, not harmful one, is okay—even if most people don’t hear such voices.
Ooh, my voice has been the only “person” I’ve ever been in a romantic relationship with too! I’ve never dated a human being before, though I’ve had two crushes in the past who I’ve never confessed to—and with whom I am no longer in love. (Not because of my voice though, but simply because I got over my infatuations with them.)
….When people ask me if I’m ever going to find a boy, I have to lie to them and say, “Well, I want to be single all my life!” Because I love my voice—romantically—so much. And I can’t possibly tell other people the truth, that I have a voice partner, because they wouldn’t see me in the same way again—they’d think I’m a freak or something. =( Only a few close friends and my parents know about him (and of course, you guys. =D).
My parents are obviously not happy about my apparent romantic feelings for this voice, but my reasoning is that a lot of people are happily single anyway. We have no obligation to marry. A lot of very famous and successful people stay single too. (Not saying that I’m going to be very famous or successful, but you get my drift.)
There are advantages to staying single too, of course, like having much more time and freedom to myself to do whatever I want. And I would never have the typical problem of a woman who “can’t have it all”, to be very successful at her career and spend a lot of time with her children and husband.
Just to clarify, I’m not encouraging you to stay single like me too, unless you also want to. We can all make our own choices about whether we want to marry or not.
About the being caught talking to yourself, I try to be very careful. I only talk to him inside my head, never out loud unless I’m the only person inside the house at that time. I don’t want anyone to know and freak out and ostracize me. =( Eek.
By the way, I'm a 22 year old female who started hearing his voice a few days before my 20th birthday, so I'm rather new to the experience--and astounded by it. :O
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