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I tried to kiss her, but my face passed through her face as if she wasn't really there

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021355

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The Art of Dying – Drs Peter and Elizabeth Fenwick

I had a vivid, dream. Mum walked into my dining room wearing shorts, walking shoes and a fleece jacket; she was perfectly well and looked younger than she had done for many years! She sat down in an old, wicker chair in the dining room. I was in the kitchen and when, I turned, and saw her I ran across and, shouted, 'What are you doing here? You're better!'

As I looked along what should have been, my hallway, I could see the Cottage Hospital corridor and one of the nurses walking towards me. I called, out to the nurse, 'She's better - look!' Mum looked at me and said,, 'I am ready to leave now.' I immediately knew that she meant that she was about to die and, 'let go'. I looked at her and I said, 'But we haven't said goodbye' and I tried to kiss her, but my face passed through her face as if she wasn't really there. We both looked up and said quietly, 'Please God, just this once!' I was then able to kiss her properly and she disappeared from the dream.

I awoke with a start and looked, at the clock in the bedroom – I knew that what I had dreamt was significant. It was 2.15 a.m.

The next morning I got up at 5 a.m., anxious for news. The phone rang at 7 a.m. - it was the Cottage Hospital ringing to let us know that Mum had, died at 2.50 a.m. just half an hour or so after my dream.

What makes the dream even more unusual is that Mum had not been able to visit my house for about nine months; she was unable to walk and was not well enough to make the journey. In that time I had made significant alterations to the dining room which Mum had never seen. In my dream the dining room was as Mum, would have last seen it; it was as if I was seeing it through her eyes, not mine. Of course, you could say I wanted Mum to come and say goodbye and I needed that closure. Whatever the  reason for the dream, it will always be a special moment in my  life.

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Observation contributed by: John Bryant