Adams, Ryan - Helping cope with Meniere's disease
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Ryan Adams Opens Up About Tragic Ear Disease - October 21, 2011 @ 12:41 PM By Ian Drew
Ryan Adams: I did my last live shows in March 2009, but I was really suffering from an inner ear disease called Meniere's disease and all the stuff that goes along with it, which is a lot of vertigo, balance issues, and problems with depth perception. When I was on stage, with one shift in the lighting, I couldn't quite see where to put my foot, and it made it really, really difficult for me to just do what I needed to do with my band. Also, I started experiencing tinnitus, which started in 2005, maybe even before. I actually was missing tours and shows, like little tours, from these intense ear infections and basically they started to graduate into this thing where somewhere around 2006, 2007, I was diagnosed. But the tinnitus was an overwhelming noise that never stopped in my left ear, 24 hours a day.
Us: So the tinnitus just accelerated very quickly because of this disease?
RA: I don't know if the kind of tinnitus that I'm experiencing is the kind of tinnitus that someone with just tinnitus experiences. The way I can explain mine is on a good day, it sounded like the wind was howling and there was a siren. On a bad day, it sounded like I was standing in front of a jet engine in front of my left ear. As all that stuff was going on, I was losing my hearing. I would hear these very high-pitched noises would be in my left ear and they would come on with the feeling of pressure and then after that there would be this very, very intense high-pitched frequency that would sort of emanate to an almost unbearable level until it would completely disappear. And when it would disappear, it would also feel like pressure as well and then there would be silence where that was. But it would be because I could no longer hear that note. So I was listening to the sound of my hearing going, which is terrifying, extremely painful, and it was causing me to lose sleep. And the side effects for me were seasickness, some people experience vertigo, but mine manifested itself in a sort of extreme nausea and like seasickness. I was really worn down and ill and I was always carsick, and I was on tour from 2007 to 2009 as this is happening. It was getting to the point where just going to a radio station in the morning before a show was making me violently ill and I was being not able to perform on stage. I weighed like 130 lbs. or something, I looked like shit and I was just destroyed. I was completely destroyed. …..
Us: Are you cured or are you still going through it?
RA: No, it's a degenerative disease, and it's not curable. It happens and you deal. You can change your life to try to get on top of it, which is what I've done. Different people experience different symptoms but the main thing you do is do your best to live well.
Us: Have you taken medication or yoga or breathing exercises or something to
deal with it?
RA: Yoga is really good for it actually. I went to see an acupuncturist that my wife sees who's an extremely beautiful man and he has this great place and I started there. I also went to see a nutritionist who works on doing blood labs with you do change your supplements or add supplements to your life. And then I started to see a hypnotherapist and that was to deal with my doubt about playing music again after I was feeling a bit better. Having to play was like having a panic attack, and the panic attack would make me have a Meniere episode. And the Meniere episode would make me forget a lyric, or I would feel like I was going to fall down on stage. So there was a great amount of psychological damage that it did, there was a great amount of stage fright that culminated from this. So, I went to see this man and eventually we even worked on training my mind so that I did not hear my tinnitus, and I don't hear it anymore. I changed everything I eat, I don't smoke anymore, I started to hike, I don't drink coffee.
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Observation contributed by: John Bryant