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anon71024 - Post 9

I am now 20 and I've had auditory hallucinations while trying to fall asleep since I was in grade school.

When I was younger I would hear my mom and sister shouting at each other. I used to always think it was real, and would then realize that it was all in my head. I've continued to hear voices for all these years, but they have rarely been terrifying.

Since I've had them my whole life, I always recognized that what I hear while trying to fall asleep is not actually real. Sometimes the voices are people I know, and sometimes they are complete strangers. I've heard people talking in different languages. The interesting thing is, they will sometimes speak about things far more articulately than I consciously can, or about things I feel I have no knowledge of.

Obviously I have this information stored in my brain somewhere, but it can only be accessed subconsciously, apparently!

So my issue is not with the actual voices frightening me. I am more frustrated with my complete lack of control over them. I can't get them to stop, and I don't hear them when I am drifting off to sleep. I hear them while I'm in bed, rolling around for hours. I've had insomnia for years, and I feel like this is greatly because these voices won't let me fall asleep- they are too distracting.

I'm also frustrated that I cannot find others who seem to have this exact situation as me. Even other people with the auditory hallucinations talk more about hearing them while they drift off to sleep, or only hearing single words, repeated names, or loud crashing sounds.

I wish that I could get a better idea of what is wrong with my brain to cause these- and how I can control them and get better sleep.

One last thing- the funny thing is, I never knew that hearing voices while trying to sleep was abnormal until my freshman year of college.