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anon181157
Post 71

I have had frightening experiences over the years yet as of Easter I have been having them almost nightly. Last night was the worst. It was different than the other times as this time I could explain what I was seeing. Normally I will feel willed to awake and look in a certain direction and then I will see what are usually frightening hard to explain things. Usually I am in bed alone but at times my husband is there. Though I scream out many times it takes so long for him to hear and by the time he does I am a mess.

Lat night I had been asleep for about 25 minutes. I wasn't will to awake, don't really know why I did.

However this time instead of not knowing what I was seeing and watching it fade it was clear. It was a man walking past the foot of my bed, his back to me with jeans and a hoodie pulled up.

I was startled and this time it seemed startled as well, as though it was not expecting me to wake up. I freaked and it seemed to freak and tried to run and hide but it couldn't and kept running into the wall. I ran out of my room screaming for my husband who came running taking the stairs three at a time.

I was a mess, my heart beating out of my chest. I was hysterical and called my mom. I can't go on like this. I managed to get back to sleep when my husband came to bed at 2:30. I slept with the covers over my head and woke up all night in soaked sweat but refused to come out of the blankets. I figured if I don't look, it can't scare me anymore.

I am afraid to see a doctor. I don't want this in a permanent file. I too, am afraid that when I am old and possibly alone, these will overcome me and I may be lost to my mind. I am sure people would call me crazy. I am trying to find a logical solution and this may be it.

Still, last night my husband was irritated and when he said "how come this never happens when I'm around" he has no idea how much that scared me. I just want to be left alone. I am not crazy.