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anon309796
Post 25

I'm 17 years old and I believe I've had three such hallucinations in my lifetime, however I cannot be certain. The first I recall is when I was asleep in my room and I woke up. I opened my eyes and as I was lying on my back, I just saw a fuzzy shape hanging in mid air, but I was certain I was awake and the more I blinked, it just disappeared, so I figured it was something like an orb in my vision (I suffer from migraines and am familiar with such shapes).

However, a few weeks ago I had actively forced myself to go to sleep. Usually I fall asleep with the TV on, texting or reading . I'm always doing something, never just lying there. However this time, I figured it was getting late and I needed to sleep. So I just lay there, and I dropped off, and then thought I woke up only five minutes later, and from my bed I saw a shape in my room, like a girl standing by the wall. I am petrified of such horrific things and therefore started panicking. I then saw more and more figures gathering in my room and coming towards me and I panicked even more. I then glanced to my window and saw a man there. I was certain such events were not truly happening though, and hoped desperately to wake up. I cannot fully remember what happened but I actually managed to wake up. But everything in the dream/hallucination was laid out just as it is in my room, the vase of flowers, clothes on the floor etc. – all the minor details -- like my eyes were actually open.

Then last night, once again I actively forced myself to sleep, yet again I fell asleep and believed I was awakened when I was pulled from my bed and thrown to the other side of the room, where some invisible force seemed to taunt me and pull me around the room. I was terrified but I knew that I was asleep, and actually in bed, so I tried to wake up and turn on my bedside lamp but I couldn't move. I was suddenly back in bed in the dream/hallucination, panicked and eager to turn the light on, but every time I flicked the switch, nothing happened. I also saw the man at the window again but only for a few seconds. Eventually I made a real effort, as if I were pulling a heavy load somewhere and I shook off the heavy paralysed feeling I had and woke up for real, and tried the light, which now worked.

I cannot completely decide if I'm just having really accurate lucid dreams, or if I am hallucinating.

When awake and alone at night I am usually quite scared of ghosts, and I remember images from horror films and things I have seen, so I feel these are impacting on my subconscious, and influencing my dreams